Anxiety has been eating away at me since Wednesday. It all started with the unloading of the exhibition pieces for Faces and Figures and the discovery that one of them was warped and I had only two days to make a new piece and make my delivery date. (Then there's this custom order that has been stressing me out and I really just want to give the customer back her downpayment and slink away with my tails tucked but we won't talk about that today).
I felt I might still be able to use the piece since the warping was adding to the idea of things washing away but decided hey! Let's make a new piece because I was not feeling good about this particular accidental bit of magic.
It has been raining non-stop all week. Not a good situation for wanting clay to dry quickly. And top it off since Friday, because of the flooding, my husband has been stranded on the other side of the country. (Thankfully his parents live up that way so he has shelter) It's still been rough to see people you know lose so much because of the flooding.
By Friday I realise that I will have to do a once firing in the electric kiln. Not really feeling it but not seeing much of a choice. Since one of the pieces broke this morning when the photo backdrop fell on it! (See photo below)
So right now I'm sitting here not knowing what's going on, hearing noises like things popping but that could just be the anxiety playing with my head. I've been indulging in misantropic pity parties and singing the end is near. I know eventually my faith will kick in but for right now I am in Gloomville.
I think my anxiety also has to do with the fact that the pieces mark a definite departure in thought from the fuctional work. They are dishes yes but not necessarily for the function but the theme.
I'll post pictures soon, promise. Until then, we await the kilns firng cycle completion with trepidation and a teeny bit of hope but lots of angst. In the meantime, pray for me! Thursday is just around the corner, EEEP!!!
Today I turn 50. My birthday is always bittersweet. Thankful for another year of life, thankful to be surrounded by people whom I love and who love and support me in everything I do, happy to have the love of a man who still makes me weak in the knees when he smiles at me; which is every day, for the past twelve years. But restless because I look at the path my journey is taking and I cringe at the mistakes and chomp at what I still dream of accomplishing. I know that I must take this one day at a time and be grateful to God for where I am but the impatient in me longs to cut down on the mistakes and the procrastinating. I will learn to forgive myself, however, and enjoy each stage of the path; each flower and even the weeds.
This year has been full of new horizons; from hosting workshops to taking part in exhibitions like this one that has taken me so out of my comfort zone that I need GPS to find the thing.I must be crazy! Yet, here I am, about to embark on this wild adventure.
If you're in the neighbourhood on the 25th Come on down to the GD Gallery on Hilda Lazzari Terrace in San Fernando and share in the experince of 16 talented artists as they explore the human form in Faces and Figures.
Thursday 25th: Opening Reception
Friday 26th: Meet the Artists
Saturday 27th: Movie Night (movie to be announced)
Sunday 28th: Coffee Morning and closing
Hi I am an artist and potter here in Trinidad and Tobago, in the Caribbean. This is my blog and I hope you come along with me as I share pieces of my pottery world with you.