What the hell? Is this what the year is going to look like?
I have not touched clay or even seen some since December. For somone who is trying to establish a pottery business that is somewhat troubling to say the least (insert face palm and embarrsed emojis) I am wallowing in a major bout of low motivation and I feel guilty.
I am questioning my actions. I stare at the "goals and objectives 2019 list I made at the beginning of the year and I wonder: What the hell? Is this what the year is going to look like? Time is flittering away and I am letting it.
To make matters worse, I started experiencing severe back pains as a result of a pinched nerve. OUCH! I could not do anything for a week plus and that depressed me even further.
Fast forward and its the first week of February and I'm only now writing my first blog post. (I've written and deleted this about 5 times since my last email to you) I was just not satisfied.
I discovered that I was not the only one who experienced low motivation and had to kick my own butt to get moving.
In desperation I went on to my Instagram stories and admitted my 'sins'. I expected that I would be raked, tarred and dragged through the streets with the shame bell ringing.(Can you tell I'm looking forwrd to the Season 8??)
Instead, I discovered that I was not the only one who experienced low motivation and had to kick my own butt to get moving. One of the things I asked for was suggestions on how to get up and I will graciously share some of what I learnt from my followers on how they get going with you, since we all need that boost every now and then.
Five Steps To Get Up and Get Going
So with that said, see you in the studio!
I have been busy in the studio getting ready for Christmas. Funy how you think you made 'enough' and then you do one show and realise that you are not nearly as prepared as you thought. Well that is my experience right now. I am in full panic mode; especially since I added another venue to my usual Christmas apperances.
I am thankful though, becaause it means that my babies are finding new homes and bringing a sense of zen to someone's coffee, tea, eating/drinking experience. Cheers!!
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So back to the studio I go to work on those ideas and visions that float around in my head. Here births another shell inspired baby. And some of them will be available on the 29th at TRADE.
I'll be looking out for you!
Anxiety has been eating away at me since Wednesday. It all started with the unloading of the exhibition pieces for Faces and Figures and the discovery that one of them was warped and I had only two days to make a new piece and make my delivery date. (Then there's this custom order that has been stressing me out and I really just want to give the customer back her downpayment and slink away with my tails tucked but we won't talk about that today).
I felt I might still be able to use the piece since the warping was adding to the idea of things washing away but decided hey! Let's make a new piece because I was not feeling good about this particular accidental bit of magic.
It has been raining non-stop all week. Not a good situation for wanting clay to dry quickly. And top it off since Friday, because of the flooding, my husband has been stranded on the other side of the country. (Thankfully his parents live up that way so he has shelter) It's still been rough to see people you know lose so much because of the flooding.
By Friday I realise that I will have to do a once firing in the electric kiln. Not really feeling it but not seeing much of a choice. Since one of the pieces broke this morning when the photo backdrop fell on it! (See photo below)
So right now I'm sitting here not knowing what's going on, hearing noises like things popping but that could just be the anxiety playing with my head. I've been indulging in misantropic pity parties and singing the end is near. I know eventually my faith will kick in but for right now I am in Gloomville.
I think my anxiety also has to do with the fact that the pieces mark a definite departure in thought from the fuctional work. They are dishes yes but not necessarily for the function but the theme.
I'll post pictures soon, promise. Until then, we await the kilns firng cycle completion with trepidation and a teeny bit of hope but lots of angst. In the meantime, pray for me! Thursday is just around the corner, EEEP!!!
Hi I am an artist and potter here in Trinidad and Tobago, in the Caribbean. This is my blog and I hope you come along with me as I share pieces of my pottery world with you.